Here we are. Nearly 6 weeks later, and still in “stay-home, stay-safe” mode. I’d love to write that it has been easier in the last few weeks, but I’d be lying. While the newest member of our family (a 14-week old Golden Retriever) is doing well and getting the hang of life, the oldest child is not. I am set on keeping her healthy, so we have not left the house much. She doesn’t understand what 6-feet-apart means nor what “don’t touch your face” means. I spend the extra money to have groceries delivered because “social distancing” is not something her autism understands. In fact, I believe it might be the complete opposite in her case.

I am working from home doing art lessons for my 700+ students. It’s a lot of work, but with an amazing team, anything can be done. I manage to do quite a few online meetings a week, and get a video lesson done with Phoebe right by my side. (And, when I say right-by-my side, I mean it.) If she could sit on my lap, she would. The uncertainty is so difficult for her. (it’s difficult for all of us)

Phoebe loves her school, loves her teachers, and loves her friends. Even in times when she is mean or says mean things…she truly loves them. The social part of her school is what keeps her motivated. Usually, on the last day of school, she cries and gets so upset. This can last for days, and months. Quarantine has thrown us in to a new sadness. She cries after ZOOM meetings with friends and teachers, she cries when we talk to family. She is by my side all day, and night. (Only in her room when she sleeps) With her constant need for attention, this is trying on the whole family. Her anxiety has regressed, her social skills have regressed, her sleeping has regressed. Things are spiraling, and I don’t see an end any time soon.

I have been researching ways to help her, ways to get her back to where she was. Let’s be honest…it’s not going to happen. We are doing the best we can, and hoping for things to go back to normal soon. In the meantime, we will continue to order groceries, forgo slurpees, save money on gas and fast food, and yes, order hundreds of dollars worth of Skittles and Starburst on Amazon (Yes, I changed my password).

Stay safe and healthy.